Me, Me and Me!!!

   Kay, this blog will be joel-style. Telling you all about my day and its activities. Hmm, Joel requested a post like this awhile back, remember?

   Hmm, so, I woke up at 5.05am. Supposed to pray for 5mins first before getting ready for school but I ter-plonk out. So, instead I only prayed 3mins, sleep 2mins. Then, go brush teeth, bla bla etc la..

   Den, got into the bus at 5.35am. Hmm, the bus like a bit the extra early today. I din get to finish my breakfast. Slept on the bus. Reached school at 6.35am. Eh, I’m the first here today. Nobody at CF Room yet. Sometimes the 3 Musketeers, aka Zheng De, Kwan Yew and Nicholas arrive before me.

   Kay, got a few mins of sleep on the stairs before the 3 musketeers arrived. And you know la, they are so noisy that its impossible to sleep sometimes.. =D Hehe, no la, today din feel that much like sleeping.. So, I dunno how? But we got started on the topic of shooting blanks? Discovery channel human society and their body functions? Haha, before I knew it, Zheng De was educating me about intercourse and whatnot.. Then, Stephen came along too and he joined it. Talked about Shanghai Knights too and related stuff. But dun worry, it was mainly scientific stuff. We din get too perverted. But I did come away less innocent. =P

Now, I know what shooting blanks mean. Haha.. Later on, I told Shane he was shooting blanks just for fun. He nearly killed me =) that guy.. He’s so funny.

   Neway, to come back. At 7.05am. When more people had arrived, we started CF. Today, we split into 4 groups and discussed CF. There was this person in my group whom I am particularly worried about. I wanted he/she to really grasp what CF meant. But he/she was so busy that I don’t think he/she really got it after all.. Suppose I’ll have to pray for he/she really hard.

   Then, went for perhimpunan at 7.30am. After perhimpunan went to meja bulat to confirm with caleen that we’re (krys and I) going to Cheer 2005 on friday. Then, after that, Krys and I go toilet first. Haha, must tie  hair neatly first. Then, chatted about Christianity, chatted about Cow. I would say it was a meaningful talk.

   Went back to class rather late. Think I missed about half of it already. But it was moral, so.. Can say doesn’t really matter. Suk Yin (the girl sitting beside me) didn’t come to school today. I wonder if she might be sick. Aiyah, a pity, I was thinking of inviting her to come church today.

   During accounts, kent came over and sat beside me and he bullied me again. Blek, that guy is so big and gigantic and so scary…. And he’s always so mean!! Heh, but he’s a good christian brother to have around la.. He has many good points, but he needs to be less domineering and bully me less. *sticks out tongue defiantly*

   Then, went makmal for Science. Did some trolley, calculate speed experiment. Hmm, I did the same experiment already last year in Fiziks class. Oh well, no harm doing it twice. =) Sat around, cutting the snips of paper (part of the experiment), talked to Wei Luck. Can’t remember what we talked about..

   Went back to class, felt the day was passing by very slowly.. 2 more periods till recess.. Seng Yoon offered to tumpang me buy some McD wristbands : a black marble and light pink one. BC teacher didn’t come! YAy, got one free period! Talked to Wei Luck, Chu Chu and Eng Thong. Saw the GP girls photo in Eng Thong’s handphone. Hmm, I don’t think they’re as pretty as Chu claims they are..

   They showed me their pic of this cruise trip they had last year on the gemini. I think we’re planning to have a trip to genting or langkawi after SPM.

   Yea, reccess time!!! Went to get CF room key from the bilik guru. Couldn’t find it. Went to CF Room. Bah, turned out kent was faster than me and went to get it already. Hehe, I did ask him to get the key for me but I was joking only lar.. Make me do double work. Cheh cheh..

   Anyway, interview was canceled today cos james couldn’t make it cos he had perbarisan. So, we had a meeting/discussion instead. Wrapped it up early, went to canteen get nuggets. Saw Krys, passed her the Pygmallion book. Saw Ee Ling-y!! =)

   Went for Seni class, draw draw draw.. Then, got distracted by the band practising marching for sports day outside. Started chanting "kiri kiri, kiri kanan kiri" in time to their drums. Then, talked to Chai Xin la.. Then, talked to Ruth about Cheer 2005 and make-up. =D

   Go back to class. Haha, last period teachers having meeting today! Yay! Helped kent find some bible verses for his care group later.. Helped Jian shen translate some stuff into english for this competition. Talked to Ruth and Soo Ven about Cheer, prom (its RM 120 bucks!!!), Wang Lee Hom.. Heh..

Yay, bell ring!! Go Home!!

   Rushed out with krys in tow, so I can make it to the shop to buy reload coupon first and not miss my bus. Turned out I didn’t need to rush after all.. My bus came super late today.. He isn’t usually late. Hmm.. Hah, confronted choon yu with something very interesting which he didn’t tell me but I found out from Chu. *wink* Turned out it was only half true, but still very interesting nonetheless.. Poor choon yu was really really blushing.. But he looks cuter with a red face anyway.. So, its not his loss.

   Wye Yin(my other bus-mate) was kinda like really shocked and suprised too.. Haha, naughty choon yu.. =D We never expected something like that.. Today bus was very noisy, because of 3 of us.. Hehe, the whole way back we talked about love, boy/girlfriends, Cheer 2005, etc etc..

   It seems quite a lot of ppl are going for Cheer! Hehe, I can’t wait… I really really want to go. Its this saturday!! Haha, you people can expect a long post on saturday =) I’m planning to have a really long day.. =D

   Then, reached home. Ate lunch. Bathed. Then, Lek soon (my cousin) came over to give me maths tuition. Heh, he really gets along well with star (my dog). He was here from like 3 to 5.45.. He always gives me extra time..

   Haha, btw, during one of the breaks. He actually fell asleep on the sofa! Terrible.. Lolz! Oh, btw, does nombor perdana (prime number) is 1 included? It is 2, 3, 5 etc… Or 1, 2, 3, 5, etc?  I still think 1 is included. Lek Soon doesn’t think so. Hehe, he’s a nice teacher and cousin to have =)

   Kay, after maths tuition. I came here to blog. Later, at 8pm, I’ll be having tuition again. English Litereature =)

Okay, byez ppl! God bless! =)

   Ehehe, I wanted to save that last post in a draft or something but cannot. Cos I had to go offline suddenly. So, let me continue here.. Neway, I was like thinking of maybe consulting another teacher. But after discussing with my parents I don’t think I should la.. So, I won’t. Haha, I’ll just pray for God to be my judge and He’ll deal with the matter Himself.

   After all, mr michael mysteriously was stung by a bee yesterday. *stifles evil laugh*

God bless you, Mr Michael! =)

EST stands for English in Science and Technology, and its one of the subjects we have in school. Its also one of the SPM subjects, but its a newly introduced subject. I think we only started having it 2 years ago.. Right?

Last year, EST was my best subject. If I recall correctly I got 90something once, and I’m sure all 3 subjects were consistently above 85. Those test papers were marked by Pn Kauthar.

This year, I changed classes. Now, I have a new teacher. Mr Michael. Guess how much I got for EST this term? Fourty freaking two.. That’s how much I got.. Only 42marks!!!! That’s an 8E in SPM!! Shit, from a very strong 1A to 8E?? Is that crazy or what?  EST was my best subject, this term its my very worst. Even my maths got higher than EST. I got 49 for maths. And you know, I hate maths. And I love english.

So, what the crap went wrong? Those in CHS or used to be in CHS would know that Mr Michael’s english isn’t very good. When he started teaching me this year I was suprised at his grammar, at his vocabulary, at his pronunciation.

I’m not criticising him. He’s a great teacher. A great encourager, and motivator. But when it comes to English.. ‘Nuff said. I am  dissapointed and pissed over my low marks. I’m wondering whether its my incompetence or his incompetence.

For the first term exam, I got very low for the paper two. Paper one, he lost it. So, I never knew my total marks and how much I got that term. Term two (this term), I really put in a lot of effort to write well, to answer well, to improve my marks. And generally, when I finished I was pleased. It felt like good-quality work.

So, you can imagine my suprise when this term I got even lower for paper two than my first term. I tried harder and I got lower. He is totally spoiling english for me. He is a degradation to the english language.

For my english essay paper. The 1119. I tried really hard for first-term, gave him a good essay and I only got 65 over 85. This term, I know he likes stories. So, I gave him a story. Not a well-written one. It really isn’t up to my usual standard but he gave it 75 over 85. WHAT!!

Tis a like-hate relationship I’m having with Mr michael. I respect him for truly caring for his students. I respect him that he is a good public speaker. I respect him for all that. But when it comes to english, he irritates me. A lot. Especially when the stuff he teaches is completely wrong. He’s teaching us wrong english!!

Some people suggested I show the  paper to another EST teacher and get theie opinion on it. But

   Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about CF. As you know, I’ll be stepping down very soon. In 2weeks time. And now that the year is ending, it reminds me of how little time left I have in CF. And I dun want to leave!!! I don’t.

   CF will be the one thing I miss most. CF really really does help keep you on track every morning. Doing something God-related every morning(mon-fri) really keeps you recharged. Boy oh boy, CF.. And after doing the interviews I realised something. Not everyone understands, truly comprehend what CF means. Let me tell you, CF is not a persatuan. Its much much more than that. Its a place where God is. A place to worship and talk to God. To remind us constantly of His love.

   I’ve under-appreciated CF. But I tell you, I love CF. I do. And I wish I’d done more for CF. I know life and being a christian is an everyday thing and can be done anywhere anytime. But CF really helped mould me.

   I think this post will be a ramble of thoughts with no proper sructure.. But just follow my train of thought okay? Number one, I think I’m sad because I have to step down. Why? Selfishly, I think its because I feel I won’t have the honour of being CF president anymore. Because I feel, CF is the best persatuan in the whole school. And being CF president is the best post there is in the whole school.

   But I received a revelation last Friday: you don’t have to be in the committee in order to serve. And that’s so very true. All of us are a body in Christ, all of us play a part in serving. We’re all vital parts of CF.

   I’m sad. I don’t think its part of the not being in authority or power anymore thing. But simply, that I have to pass the honour of serving God in such a wonderful, powerful and unique way to someone else.

   In a way, a small way. I am relieved. Its not easy being  a president. Even more so when its CF president. Because everyone is looking at you, you can’t slack, you have to maintain a certain level of integrity and purity in your daily life. You have to change. You have to be a good testimony, a good example. A role model.

   But at the same time, its made me grow tremendously. CF has changed me ultimately. Taught me so many things. Like how I need to be more firm with the comm members. I shouldn’t bring my handphone to school (this is something i still struggle with). Don’t ponteng class. Don’t  eat outside the canteen, especially not in CF room. Have more confidence. Experience in worship leading, sharing, bible study, organising camps, everything..

   Btw, CF is gonna have a T shirt soon =) Yeeahh.. Red colour and really cool too. I can’t wait for CF to finally finally have our own shirt. *sigh*

   I know God will take care of the next batch of committees. I know God will bring the CF from glory to glory. I know I should pass the opportunity to someone else. I thank God for this past year. He’s truly been great and real to me. I thank God for CF.

   You know wut, I want all CF-ers to love God and love the CF. To be passionate. I really dunno wut I have till its gone. I will miss CF tremendously. So much. I dun even really know why. I think partly maybe its because I’ll be missing the CF-ers too. Tian An, I need you to guide and encourage me. I need you to pray together with me. Man, oh man, this is all making me think of graduation.

   Man, I seriously don’t wanna leave high school yet.. I haven’t enjoyed high school life enough. I used to want to grow up as fast as possible. Now, I want to slow down. Give me an extra half a year in high school and I’ll be happy.

   I dunno wut else to say.. Just that I’m already starting to reminisces over life currently.

4 months left to SPM!!! Where did all the time go to? Father Time, I sincerely do wish you’d walk slower..

   On Friday, Mr michael asked me to help him type some school-related, exam-related stuff.. I agreed. He passed me a floppy disc and 9 pink exam slips. My task : type out the exam results for the class (40students) in microsoft excel worksheet.

   So, on friday night. I switched on my com, ready to get busy. Dang, I forgot! My house computer "a-drive" is spoilt. And I dunno how to fix it. Okaaay… Then, my mum reminded me of the old computer in the store room. She suggested I try using that com instead. Great idea!

   I went and lugged the com out, attached all the wires, cables, mouse, keyboard, everything.. Then, switched it on. Hmm, the thing doesn’t work though.. Windows comes out fine, but then there’s no icons, no start-bar, nothing.. Zip. Zilch. Blank. Nada. The thing obviously does not work. Mission failed.

   Kay, what next? Hmm, I know. I’ll call Jian Sheng (kuah) and ask him if I go over and can use his com. I called him, but Perng picks up the call instead. Apparently, they’re all in singapore having a good time. Jsheng, Perng, Ronald, Shou Jun, and Sonic. *sigh* Where are friends when I need them..

   So, my mum suggested. We pay a visit to the cyber cafe on Sunday after church. Good. So, today after church I went to the cyber cafe. I slaved away at the com for two whole hours.. And!! Then!! *da da dum* I could not save it! I could not print it! WHAT!! *takes deep breath* Tries again and again, unsuccesfully.

   Finally, I appealed to the cc owner for help. Turns out the guy sitting beside me was in fact, the cyber cafe’s computer repairman. So, he helped me. But the com jammed instead. Refused to obey any commands. Finally, the danged thing restarted itself. Oh man!! *swears under breath* You have to be kidding me..

  Okay, all my hard work and effort for the past 2 hours went down the drain. That kind guy tried to help me trace the worksheet, file, wtv.. But nothing. Useless.. The com can be extremely stubborn. By this time it was very late and I had to go home. Okay, so, I left. Back, to square one. All my effort, my time, two whole hours wasted. The computer guy felt bad. I could tell.. I dun blame him, he knew my work were all wasted.

   I went into the car, tried calling jsheng again. He should be back from singapore now. He didn’t pick up, didn’t reply. Bah you! Then, I called Perng. He’s a refreshing relief. He sounds so cheerful and he recognised my voice (i was using my mum’s phone), sounded pleasantly suprised to hear from me. Yes, he told me they were back from singapore.

   Kay, reached home tried calling jsheng again. Finally, tried his house phone. Kay, I got him. Apparently, phone was upstairs, jsheng was downstairs. Fine. Yes, I could use his computer. Good. Microsoft excel working; floppy a drive not working. Bad, very bad. Devastating. Shoot!!

   I ran out of options. Go to another cyber cafe, choon yu’s house, leon’s house, jewel’s house, luke’s house? No. No. No. All not my cuppa tea. I dunno any of their parents. Plus it was getting late. By the time I finshed my work, it would be 11-something. I wasn’t sure how their parents would react to that.

   Jsheng suggested I go to choon yu’s house, extract the data, then, go over to jsheng’s house and finish up. I could.. Hmm… I think I’ll give mr michael a call. I planned to explain all my difficulties, and apologise, try not to sound like I’m inventing excuses, etc.. Tell him I finished it but couldn’t save. Kay, call time..

   Guess what he says..

"Mr Michael, can I finsh it for you tomorrow instead?"
"Ya, sure sure no problem"
"Can I use the school’s computer after school to finish up and pass it to you on tuesday?"
"Ya, sure sure no problem. Thank you very much ya Li En"

That was how the conversation went. Crap man.. And what was all that load of crap about needing it on monday. Otherwise… Oh mr michael, dear mr michael, I dunno whether to thank you or kill you. I thought you told me you wanted it urgently on monday, no later!!

Mr michael, mr michael.. If only you knew what lengths I went to for you.. How much trouble to finish the thing for you. Ohhhh, mr michael mr michael…. Bugger, this is one teacher whom I am in two minds over.

   Why is everyone going to singapore??

• Mei Yii & Hui Yii just came back from there.
• Mei Yan and Sean are studying a-levels in singapore.
• Jian sheng(kuah),luke and Perng are all down there this weekend.
• My friends’s boyfriend is working in Singapore
• John seems to go there for work a lot

Bah, what’s all this with singapore.. *sigh* My mum said she would take me there for shopping. But she isn’t anymore.. Because she decided not to after all.. *sniff*

Today is undoubtedly the worst day of my life.

   Okie, firstly here are my two buried babies. =) My ex-blogs. For you to merujuk if you’re interested.

My first : www.bunnygonebonkers.blogspot.com
This is/was super pinkish and has a lot of animated emoticons, etc.. More childish stuff. In this blog, at that point in life, was trying to hard to impress and please my readers. Wasn’t getting any self-fulfillment out of it. Then, I got into this depressed rut, couldn’t find anything worthwhile to blog, changed the blog colour to black. Changed the font super big. (huge mistakes both of them) ITE, got disgusted with my motivation and my blog’s appearance, so, I quit. Suggestions: check out the May 2004 and compare with Oct 2004. Will notice how much I/blog changed.

My second : www.mintclover.blogspot.com
This blog was started by krys who wanted me to get back to blogging. Note the choice of name, mintclover. I wanted to start afresh, cleanse myself from that black blog. Note choice of name of first blog, bunnygonebonkers. Was trying to be cute. Originally, this blog was black. Then, as time moved on. I changed it to green, got a simple interface, streamlined everything, made it easy to read. Disabled the flooble chatterbox cos it kept on blinking and irritated/pissed me. I like this blog. Hmm, but I quit, cos… Hmm, just didn’t feel like blogging anymore. Lost interest.

My third : this blog
Why I started again? Well, I read Lionel’s blog, read eufoh’s blog, read ee wennie’s boyfren’s blog… And then, I just got the blogging itch. Wanted to voice my opinions, wanted to just blog. Wanted to tell ppl bout my life, etc.. But I didn’t want to go thru the hassle of finding a nice blogskin. Didn’t want to use mintclover cos it felt stale. So, friendster was the fastest alternative, so, here I am.

   Before I start, this blog will be super easy to read and short. This is for chong hoong who says I write too much =D Haha, so this is for you k?

   This guy chong hoong really did suprise me when he told me he saw my blog. His background : my tuition friend. Just makes me think how many people might read this blog. Makes me feel less protected. Its like (s’cuse me) exposing myself to the world. Now, I feel I have to think twice before writing wut I write.

   Hmm, diaries are kinda like a personal private thing. Blogs are like telling a lot of people (some strangers) all your thoughts and dreams. Its like baring your soul.

   OOps, I think this post isn’t using as simple english as I wanted to. Sorry, chong hoong. K la, to keep it short. I’ll end now. Btw, maxwell =) nice seeing you here.

   Hmm, my weekend was totally different from what I had expected it to be. Well, saturday I woke up at 9.30am then went to practice piano after breakfast. Practiced the whole morning. Skipped lunch cos I was too nervous to eat..

   Reached church at 1.15pm, had prayer with the worship team. The prayer really helped me feel a lot less nervous. It made me feel much much better. Then, around 2pm, we started practicing. I started freaking out again when one of my mentors stood beside me as I played. I got so scared I forgot everything. All the chords, notes, everything.

   Anyway, to cut the long story everybody, absolutely everyone is so very the super duper nice. Seriously, even though my playing was utterly crappy, they just kept on telling me "you played so well" " dun worry, you played great" "you sounded so nice" etc. Sarah is so wonderfully patient, she’s pure angel.

   Either everyone in church is really nice and forgiving of your mistakes or God really really helped me. But still I know I din play well. I know i din. So? Hmm… Anyway, praise God! Bottomline is God really worked a miracle. Both ways, He rocks!

   Hehe, playing piano for VYS is really ci gek. Its even more ci gek than riding rollercoaster. My stomach was in my throat and Im sure my heart jumped out a few times. Heh.. Good experience. I had fun =)

   After church, I went to school for the sports complex opening ceremony. Actually, my dad was supposed to go with my mum but he backed out last minute. So, my mum made me go with her instead. Hmm, I expected it to be full of old stuffy parents and teachers. And a really really boring night. But boy, it was way better than expected. In fact, I can say its almost fun. Hehe, instead it was my poor mother who found the night a terrible one.

   I went in. Felt weird cos all the students I saw were on duty and wearing uniforms, whereas I was rather overdressed and was completely loaded with barang larangans. Im sure if it was a normal schoolday, they would probably expel me already. Saw wei ning and sarah.

   Then, I saw some non-duty, non-uniform students/friends. Haha, thank God. Hehe, I felt less out of place already. Then, went over to chat with them, aka. Shi Jin, Shi Yin, Nigel, Huey Bing. By this time I was super famished cos I had a small breakfast and skipped lunch. So, we went back to our respective tables to wait for the food.

   Then, I got terribly bored. Reason being, Pn Tan Lin is really really really cheong hei. Bah, she even had to give two speeches, one in Chinese, one in Bm. And my stummie(stomach+tummy) started to growl. And all the cutting ribbon hoo-hah, thanking people, greeting VIP’s… GRRR…..

   Finally, I got to eat. The food was yummy but slightly salty. The pumpkin wins the Best Dish Award from me. The rest was fairly mediocre. Then, the rest of the night got better and better. I met Jolene!!! And she brought me to Sze Ming(birthday boy!!!! =D), Ruey Wen and Ee Ling!!! *screams and jumps up and down* Boy, was I ever so glad to see them. They really chased away my boredom. We skipped part of the dinner, the food was taking really long to come anyway..

   Then, we went to the field, fooled around, clapped hands, sang bday song for sze ming, jumped around and had lots of fun. Haha, by this time I think I was going hyper already. =D Then, I went to see Choon Yu and the bball team. Trust me, they look absolutely hilarious with make-up on. *rolling on the floor laughing* The blusher and the lipstick! Wahaha… =D

   All in all, it was fun. =D I lurrve life! I lurrrve God! I lurrrve you! Hehe, well, some of you…

God bless you all people!!! Smile and be happy! Give me a big grin NOW! =D =D =D *stretches mouth super wide and gives all a big wide white toothy grin*