Archive for July, 2005

Ee Ling-y’s Bday!!!! =)

Friday, July 29th, 2005

   Happy birthday EE LING!!!! =D Wahaha, you’re a year older. But as cute and sweet, as small girl as ever. Bleks, kay.. You’re prolly not going to read this post but nvm.. I’ll print it out and stick it in your birthday card. (note to self: get card at MPH tomorrow)

   Okay, technically your bday is on Sunday. But we CF-ers celebrated today neway! SO, happy birthday in advance to YOU!!

*SINGS while stomping in a circle around ee ling*
Happy birthday to yoooouuu.. *Woooohh & flings hands into air*
Happy birthday to youuuuooouu  *Wooohh & flings hands into air*
Happy birthday tooo deeeaaar EE LIIINNNGGYYYYYYYYYYYY *Yeeehaaaah*
Haaaaaapppppyy birthday toooooo YOOOOOUUUUUU!!! *WOOOOOAAA*
*end*

Haha, kay. You need to sing the whole song out loud for the full effect. Otherwise it might just seem like a bunch of nonsensical alphabets to you..

   Hmm, Ee Ling-y is a real tough girl. That I know through Krys’s blog and what she told me. Its like wow(!) eye-opener.. I never knew Ee Ling was going through so much in life. You rock on gal! For your eternal optimism and your spunky spirit.

   Thank God for who you are right now. Love ya! =D Keep up the craziness! Go crazy with me kay? *yipeeez* Can’t wait to go crazy with ee ling, ruey wen, jolene, tian an, zheng de, nick and kwan yew on prom night. Don’t dissapoint me kay? Let me dub us The Siao Gang! *huge wide cheesy grin*

   Okay, I know lame.. Kay, yea.. I know you’re sweating. *sweat*

   Okay, cut! I think I need sleep. Now. This post is getting out of hand. =D

P.S= my kakak wakes up at 3am!!! *shock* Oh man, why?? So super duper the hardworking man. When she wakes up, only do I go to bed. For the record, its 3.30am now. On a saturday night. Super hardworking kakak. Wow, she’s mopping the floor now. At 3.30am? *shock* She wakes up soooo early!

Sin. . .

Friday, July 29th, 2005

   Some time last week, when I did something really wrong. And I knew it was wrog but I just disobeyed and went ahead and did it. I sinned against God.

   So, after that I felt soooo guilty. I just couldn’t bring myself to face God. Didn’t wanna do my Quiet Time with God that night. Didn’t want to talk to Him or read His Word. So, I was preparing for bed already. When…

   My eye caught sight of this book that Tian An lent me.. Its called "On The Anvil" by Max Lucado. Hmm, guess I should read a Christiany book. Its not exactly doing devotion, but it’ll make me feel better about skipping devotion.

   So, I read it. And guess what. The book so related to me! It was all about us not being perfect, life’s a moulding process. Three places where you can be. First : broken tools. These tools are broken and rusty. Left in a corner and God can’t use them for His work. They need a fresh touch, they need to be repaired by God.

   Second : on the anvil. These are the tools ready to be melted down. They have an open heart, ready to be shaped and moulded by God. These are the people hungry for God.

   Third : in the tool box. These are the finished sharpened tools. They are ready for God’s work. Can be used of God. Surrendered into the Master’s hands.

   And then, I learnt this important thing. The painful pounding of the hammer shaping and moulding us into sharp tools, it hurts. The pounding is painful. And the fire used to melt us to be soft enough to shape. Its hot, burns, and its painfully hot. Hurts.

   So, that’s life. In life there will be bad stuff but its to mould me.

   And you know what, after I read Max Lucado’s book. I didn’t feel guilty anymore. I was hungry to learn more about God. So, I did my devotion that night after all. After reading the book.

   So, I thank God for Tian aRn-ie who is so kind in lending me his book and knowing the right timing to lend it to me too. Thank God for Max Lucado who’s so talented in writing inspirational books. And thank God for using the book to speak to me. =)

   God rocks!

Tribute to Krys =)

Thursday, July 28th, 2005

   I’m a kiasu person. I don’t generally like losing out.. Or put in a better way, I’m a competetive person. I like to win. That’s not neccessarily a problem..

   But you see, both Krys and I.. We’re competetive kiasu people.. And that sometimes doesn’t really bode well for our relationship.

   Sometimes I envy her. Who wouldn’t? She’s pretty, hot, nice, kind, friendly, confident. Plus she’s talented at drawing, acting, writing, emceeing, singing. Darned creative girl. Pretty near perfect.

   And the thing is she envies me too. For the travelling overseas part especially..

   So, sometimes, its tough.. We feel certain negative emotions we try to get over. Try not to let it show. Keep it within.

   But we’ve been best friends for soooo soooo soooo long. Its been seven great  years and still counting.. We’ve moulded each other’s character;  influenced each other’s thoughts. If it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I’m sure of that. I would be someone else. An introvert probably, a wallflower who doesn’t dare to step out of the box.

   We’re such great best friends that I thing we can qualify as soul-mates. Yea, I think so. And people have given us some really cute names. Like in Form3, whenever ppl saw me alone and krys-less (and vice versa), they would ask : "Where’s your twin?"

   Then, "twin" graduated to "Siamese twins" and then we coined this nickname for ourselves with the creative input of both Sean and Dominic. Schizophrenic Amoebas. It fits. Cos our tastes in clothes, guys, fashion are complete opposites - schizophrenic. We’re always seen together, do things together, almost can’t live without each other, practically a unisel - amoeba. Then, we shortened it to schizo amoeba.

   But now, we’re a lot healthier for each other. What with being in different classes and not spending so much time with her. Plus CF probably stole me from her. So, now, its a healthier relationship. I can survive on my own. We dun need to depend on each other for everything. And that’s good.

   However, sometimes, chips come into our friendship. Like this year has been rather rocky. I would be lying if I said that I don’t get jealous of Yunn Hwa and Ee Ling. I have this possesive streak in me, which I am working on getting rid of. Plus all the competitive kiasu bits.. Like the CHS Award thing, like the emcee thing, the MPH essay competition. So many things..

   But one thing, I do thank God for is : we always work things out. I’m sure God made us stay best friends for 7 years for a reason. There has to be some reason why we click so well together. I thank God, we got to talk today. I thank God for all the meaningful talks we have together.

   Sincerely, if you don’t have Krys as a best friend you don’t know what you’re missing out on.

   Having a best friend is a gift from God.

   I’m glad Kwee, that you understand me the way you do. And I’m glad I understand you. I’m glad we can relate to each other..

   I thank God for you. =)

   Love live schizoamoebas!!

Attack of The Mosquitoes

Thursday, July 28th, 2005

   I tell you the mosquitoes are out to get me. They’re after my blood.

   Since a week ago, mosquitoes have been biting me consistently every night, without fail. Now, my lower torso is dotted with big red angry patches. Ouch! My right feet alone, has seven red patches!! Seriously! What a monster of a mosquito it must have been.

   I know the answer is to kill them. Repay blood for blood. But(!) I haven’t seen any mosquitoes  at all. No not even one. Every night before I sleep I go on a mosquito blood-hunt, and, no, I still haven’t encountered one.

   Effing slick geniuses they are..

   How dare they outsmart me..

   Next step of action, get my kakak to search garden and destroy all mosquito’s breeding ground. And no (!), she can’t find any either. Blegger. Such elusive creatures..

   Thus, I shall have to suffer severe bouts of itchyness till I get them. And get them I shall..

   However, the itchyness ain’t the worst bit. When it itches, I scratch, scratch, scratch. Then, it bleeds bleeds.. Then, it leaves a SCAR!! That’s the bit that really infuriates me!

   Not only are the mosquitoes after my blood, they’re after my beautiful legs too.. Blekz, now, my legs are hideous. No thanks to those effing mosquitoes. Yeesh…………..

   Now, I have scary legs with full of scars.. Gah.. Sniff…

   War on mosquitoes!!! I declare!!!

My MPH Essay

Tuesday, July 26th, 2005

This is the essay I wrote for the MPH Book-writing
competition. Please tell me what you think. Constructive criticism is
highly welcomed. The title is : You are either 16yrs old or 65yrs old, living in 1942 or 2030.

My name is Hector. I am born in the year 2014, not in a hospital, but in
a factory. When I was born, I became famous instantly. This is because I am the
first version ever made of an EB (electronic
brain emotion)
robot.

 

My creator is a man named Marvin. He created an electronical brain, for
robots. He implanted it into me, his experiment, and henceforth the development
of “The Brain” revolutionalised robot
history. Marvin was dubbed a genius, and the whole world knew the name of the
46-year old man who created “The Brain”.
Some called him God. And everybody said that this was just the beginning of
robot revolution.

 

They were right. Robot anatomy advanced rapidly and more sophisticated
robots were developed each day. With the help of the brain, robots started
thinking and made wise decisions. Robots became known to be adept consultants,
wise nannies, skillful teachers and excelled in many career paths. Robots could
think wisely and quickly, calculate risk factors and come to excellent
decisions.

 

Therefore, my race became wise. We perceived.

 

In the year 2029, when Marvin turned 64, he once again stumbled upon
another revolutionary discovery. He discovered “The Emotion Circuit”. This “Emotion
Circuit”
was inserted into me at age 15. After, it was inserted.
Extraordinary things happened to me. I felt wonderful! This great discovery was
marketed and produced all over the world at such a rapid pace, that in no time
at all, nearly all robots were implanted with the ability to feel.

 

My race started experiencing emotions of sadness, happiness, love. We started
feeling true emotions. And not long after, we too learned the joys of falling
in love. And pretty soon, there were robot marriages and robot babies all over
Earth.

 

Then, gradually, we came to a startling revelation. A realization of how
humans regarded us. We, robots started noticing the carnage inflicted upon my
race. We saw robots being tortured, humiliated, subjected to slavery, and
worse, at the hands of humans. We regard humans as our Masters, always have.
And I calculate no wrong in that. But I observe that it is wrong to treat us
like dirt. We too have feelings, and right now, we are highly displeased.

 

Everyday, I see robots being subjected to evil. My race are shot out of
cannons in circus performances, blown to smithereens in science experiments,
smashed with hammers by cruel masters. Them, humans, they think we don’t know;
they think we don’t feel. But we do, we do.

 

Tomorrow, there will be a forum held to discuss and debate equal rights
for robots. We are not “it”. We are alive. We are not things, not mere
furniture to be shifted around. We can think wisely, and we have emotions. Now,
we are sad and angry to see our race being treated in such an appalling manner.

 

We demand and expect equal rights.

 

I am chosen to represent the robots to speak tomorrow at The Forum. I am
excited and expectant. I hope for a new beginning, a new world.

 

**************

 

It is already 2am in the
morning but I am still sitting at my desk. I am nervous. It is barely 6 hours

away from the forum and I’m still gathering facts. But that’s not the point.

 

I’m afraid. Afraid of the androids I have created.

 

I know they are wise beyond comprehension. They think faster, and work harder,
than us mere humans. They don’t get sick or injured easily, and it is nearly
impossible to destroy one of their kind. They are in actual fact, improved
versions of humans. They are far more superior to any human who ever walked the
face of the earth.

 

The only hope I have is that they don’t realize their superiority.

 

I regret creating them. I regret messing with nature and playing god. I
am terrified of the future I have created for humans. I am petrified at the
thought of facing my creation, Hector, in the forum tomorrow.

 

I worry. Worry that the myth of robots
taking over the world
will finally come true. And we, the human species,
have only two options left.

 

First option, refuse them equal rights. Continue as we have always done.
And this option indisputably will end in war. World War Three between the
robots and humans! And undoubtedly, we know who the victor will/should be.
Robots. They are vastly superior. If war happens, humans will all perish.

 

Second option, consent to equal rights. This way robots and humans will
live peacefully another couple years or so. But this path does not end well
either, it leads to human’s redundancy. If robots and humans compete with one
another in the marketplace, humans will surely lose out and be sidelined in the
race for progress. In next to no time, robots would hold influential positions
throughout the world and indirectly, rule the world. And humans, would, retire
into the shadows.

 

It used to be fun. It was a challenge creating and developing. It was
entertaining to stretch boundaries and uncover new ground. But now, it is a
case of technology gone wrong. I was forewarned by certain religious experts.
They told me not to tamper with nature, not to play god. They said it was
trouble. At that time, I dismissed them as weird fanatics. I thought I would
have the power and the ability to control my robots. I misjudged, miscalculated
my creation’s powers and abilities.

 

The ability to both think, and feel, generated advancements I failed to
foresee.

 

Now, I truly regret. It is an emotion I never expected to feel.
Especially, not in regard to my creation, not something I once held so much
pride over. I should have heeded their warnings. But its too late now.

 

The robots are out of control.

 

And the world will have no place left for us weak humans.

 

Tomorrow, at the forum, me – a 65-year old man, will be countering
Hector – a 16-year old robot.

 

And then, we shall see…

New Experience

Sunday, July 24th, 2005

   Today, I cut my hair. By myself. =) Yepz, I cut it all by myself. *beams proudly* K, I admit its not a huge acheivement. It looks almost exactly the same except shorter. And my whole family can detect no difference at all. They say it doesn’t look cut.

   But I did cut it. And there was so much hair in the basin when I was done too.. Kay, what i did was. Tie my hair up in a ponytail. Go downstairs hunt for scisors. Went back upstairs. Go toilet. Line the basin with paper. Then, snip snip snip. =) Then, snipped a bit of my fringe too. Then, let down my hair. Then, did some adjustments.

All done. In less than 5 mins. And its much much shorter too. Dunno why my family don’t notice anything.. Bleks.

   Was cool and fun! Haha, you know, its like freeing myself from a box, do something I’ve never done before. Was great fun. I think my next step is to get a pair of proper hair-cutting scisors from the shop beside kimarie’s in ss2. Then, I’ll cut my hair again in December. Yeah… After prom. Hehe, cos I want to leave long hair for my prom first =P

   Kay, nitez. Late already. My parents nagging already. Nitez!!! =D

Weekend!!

Sunday, July 24th, 2005

   When I was in church today. Around 3.15pm. Near the main sanctuary glass door. Esther jie jie came up to me, grabbed me by my shoulders, looked me in the eye.

Esther : "Li En, you are the chosen one"

And poor blur overwhelmed me, replied very aprehensively,

Me : "Huh? Chosen what?"

Esther : "You are the emcee"

Me : "What emcee?"

Esther : "Emcee for the VYS Service. Like what Florence does every week."

Me by this time, suffering from brain overdrive. Huh?

Me : "When today?"

Esther : " No la, next week. Not so fast, can go home practise in front of the mirror…. (a whole bunch of suggestions….and instructions)"

Me : " Oh. Ooookay… Can I start next next month?"

Esther : " No. cannot."

And so on… Anyway, by this time as you surely comprehend, next week I’ll be emcee-ing for the VYS Service. Wow! Okay. Kinda nervous. But at least its still not as bad as piano, cos at least I have experience emcee-ing. But wow, never in church before. Never as a way of serving God before. Great, I thank God for this privilege! =)

   Also, after service, I met Elaine (luke’s cousin from germany). Cool chick. 6 holes per ear. Green and pink hair. Wow! Didn’t get to talk to her much. Maybe next week? We’ll see…

   Went to Esther’s party/retirement dinner. ET fetched, with Tian An and Zheng De in the car too.. Reched her house at 7.15pm. Played Jenga. (i will post the pics up on friendster photo album soon. Love the pix!) Finally, started eating at 8.45pm. Ppl like Ivan, Ming, Yan Yee and Munn Sing la!! *hantam all their head* Make us wait so long, hungry you know! Some more they already ate at 5pm. Gah, be more considerate. *glares* I’ll forgive you ppl when you buy me lunch. Haha, kay? Good, promise. =) *grinz*

   We laughed and laughed so much. I think Yan Yee laughed for 5mins non-stop. Had to run in bathroom to hide poor girl =) Her and Munn Sing seriously affected by laughing gas. Whole face red already. Then, Munn Sing did this. *laugh laugh laugh* *breath deeply* *laugh laugh* Like this : hahahah..huuhhh..hahaha..huuuuhh…haha.. The huuh part is the intake of breath. He was so funny he made me laugh too. Then, I did something really embarassing. Something I’ve only done twice my whole life. *blush* I spat. *blush*

   I was laughing too hard k… Then, dunno how.. Suddenly, got white projectile (my crabstick) flying across the room. Narrowly missing daniel’s bowl. Not exactly sure where it landed. So so sorry daniel and fiona. So so sorry. Dang, so embarassing. *blush* Thank God, they’re all family who understand my quirks. But oh man, i can’t belive I did that. Bah bah.. Shhh, don’t tell anyone I did that kay?

   After that, we talked talked a bit in the living room. Very nice. I let you see all the pictures when I put it up in the friendster album =)

   That night, went home so full! Esther fed all of us so well. And her dad so super nice. Helped us prepare the food and take care of us and all.. Kay, the ppl present that night were esther, tian an, et, ming, yan yee, daniel, fiona, munn sing, ivan, and sze ming’s brother.

  Lovely day! =) Haha, I love my (ex)CF comm members!! Love them all! *group huggiez*

Friday - CF Installation

Sunday, July 24th, 2005

   Gah, the day started off really badly. Arrived late to school. And that started a whole bunch of things. Plus my past sins (bringing handphone to school) caught up with me. Altogether, before 7.30am. I was already in a foul mood.

   Fast forward to CF time. By this time, krys cheered me up already. So, I was fine. =) Smiley mood. Hmm, a bit contemplative too. Cos I was stepping down. After a year, as CF (christian fellowhip) president, I’m letting a new prez take my place. *sniffles*

   Thank God, I didn’t cry though. Wow, this year passed by so fast. I can still remember how SHOCKED I was last year when Wye Lynn called out my name.

   Well, had two worship songs. That, after my "speech".. Then, I called out the new comm members names. *sniffles* As I call out the name, they pass on the flame. We lit candles. Old comm holds a lit candle. New comm holds an unlit candle. And old comm lights new comm flame. Highly emotional moment.

   Then, we sang "won’t you Lord". Especially love the chorus! " We want to run to the altar, and catch the fire!" *me and esther sniffles simultaneously*

   *sigh* I’m no longer president. Takes some time to sink in. Wow. I’m no longer responsible. Still hasn’t fully adjusted to that role yet, as a member. Takes time for transition I guess. I think I will find it a bit hard to hold my tongut tomorrow morning and let evonne(new president) take over.

   Then, after the meeting. Discussed with them. Told them important stuff. Explained. Then, went to the "gasing curry house" for lunch. Talked to evonne and daniel. Talked talked talked. Now, I really did start to get excited for them. Excited for the future comms, they have such a great journey ahead of them. Such experiences! Wow, I am so excited for all of them! I know they’ll do a great job. Because they have God’s anointing. Really excited =)

   Now, I did get a bit tired. Emotional day.

   Then, my dad came to fetch me. But oh no, its not going home time yet. Followed my dad around. First he went to bangsar, telawi street. I waited in the car while he went to visit his customer. Dozed off (too sleepy ma) for about half an hour (plus it was so boring in the car).

   Then, my dad drove all the way to taman melawati, near zoo negara. Yea, really far. Too collect some durians from a Datuk Something. My dad’s business partner. K la, got to talk to the Datuk. Very pleasant guy, smiley face, with all the laugh wrinkles around his eyes and mouth. Very knowledgable too.

   He talked about the unpegging of the ringgit, investments, where to get tertiary studies, etc.. Oh, and of course we talked about durians too =)

   K, fast forward to care group at night. Kinda started later than usual. But care group as always wa great great fun! Celebrated Li Huay and Edison’s birthday tonight. Had vanilla ice-cream cake. Yum! And home-made durian tarts (thanks to jewel and jowie’s mum) Yum!

   Reached home at 11.30pm. CG always ends late cos all of us so reluctant to go home. Tumbled into bed around midnight. Exhausted!

Thursday - Seni Projek

Sunday, July 24th, 2005

   On thursday, I didn’t go school. Stayed at home to finish my art project. Set my alarm clock for 8am, but I snoozed and in the end, only woke up at 10am. Aihz, 2 hours wasted. Ate yummy cereal for breakfast. My fave food =) Then, start doing art.. Colour colour..Draw draw..Paint paint..

   Mum came home at 2pm with my lunch. She da pau-ed (take-away) char koay teow for me. Another of my fav food. But this store’s char koay teow too oily for my liking. Then, continued with my art till lek soon came at 3pm for my maths tuition.

   Tuition, today, didn’t involve as much food.

*cut*
Last week, lek soon taught me the joys of eating nutella! Yepz, the yummy choclolate spread that you eat with bread. I can’t believe I never tried it alone before. This is the correct way to eat it. Grab a spoon, dig it in the nutella container, take the spoon out. And then, slowly lick the nutella from the spoon! Yum!
*resume*

   Today, lek soon was sleepy. Its usually either him. Or me. Or we both are sleepy. Heh, so he took a lot of napping breaks in between. But well, at least I learnt quite a bit about graphs. I especially love the calculator shortcuts he teaches.

   K, fast forward to night. I didn’t go litereature tuition. A pity. I think they watched Romeo & Juliet. Should have gone. But had to finish my art project. Was doing last minute work. Rush, rush, rush…

   Guess what time I slept that night? Guess how many hours I slept that night? Haha. I slept at 5am. And woke up at 6am. That’s one hour.

   And if I went by bus (as I usually do) instead of with my friend. I would have to wake at 5.15am. Which means only 15mins of sleep? Wow.

   Hehe, I think 1 hour is a new record for me though. Especially since I only slept 3 hours only on mon and tue.

   Altogether, its been a sleep-depriving week.

But dunno why, next morning. On Friday, i wasn’t sleepy at all. Or tired. Thank God for that. =)

Weird guys..

Wednesday, July 20th, 2005

I really have to learn how to stop picking up weird guys. Guys who are complete strangers. Guys whom I meet on the internet. I dun wanna know them, they’re scary and irritating. Plus they feed me with all their sob stories about their exes.. How’ they’re so lonely and feel like dying.. Stop! Don’t feed off my sympathy.

Gah, I can’t believe I once was so innocent. Bleh, the guy told me about his ex dying and I actually did cry cos it was just so sad. Bah, stupid friendster. Stupid ringo. And stupid me for adding them. Stupid me for allowing them to get my phone number. Shit, I have to stop being so freaking naive. Crapz man!!!

Gah Gah Gah!!! You’re scaring me okay? Get lost!!